Possible Not Easy

"Faith makes things possible. Not Easy."

Words posted on my daughter's Mother's Day Out church's board. I love it and how true it is.

(and because I am in a class learning about giving credit for pictures online, here is where I found that great picture above.http://www.flickr.com/photos/69665213@N00/2952423618 )

Passing Along a Meme

Elizabeth over at A Rushing Wind posted this meme in order to get back into blogging this week and thought I would grab it and do the same. Go over to her spot and give some love!

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
We will be celebrating our 7 year anniversary this month!

02) What was your dream growing up?
To be a mom. No lie. Ask my mom, that's all I wanted.


03) What talent do you wish you had?
The ability to sing and it sound amazing.


04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
Coffee or a margarita


05) Favorite vegetable?
squash, zucchini, and onions sauteed together



06) What was the last book you read?
For One More Day by Mitch Albom


07) What zodiac sign are you?
Taurus or Aries...depends on which paper or what not you look at...not into this


08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
One tattoo on my bum (yes, you read that correctly) and I have had my ears pierced which never grow in but am allergic and can't wear them and had my belly button peirced many moons ago


09) Worst Habit?
I am a hard core worrier...it's pretty bad and something I am trying to conquer.



10) If you saw someone you know walking down the street would you offer them them a ride?
If they wanted a ride then of course!


11) What is your favorite sport?
Anything my kids are playing. Other than that I enjoy watching football when we have the time and if I have to cheer for a specific team than it's Cowboys or Steelers, mainly because that's the divide between my family. It's really fun to watch them all get crazy over it!


12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
Pessimistic in my own life and optimistic in others. I am quick to tell someone else to look for the good but pretty pessimistic on my own.



13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
Have a full fledged panic attack. No exaggeration, I avoid elevators if it's possible


14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
Losing loved ones unexpectedly

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
I can't use both ends of a Q-tip when cleaning out mine or my childrens ears. If you use both ends they you are holding the nasty, already used end in your palm...gross.


16) Do you have any pets?
We had a cat that we had to get rid of because of my new found allergy to them and two dogs, Maggie and Rowdy, our massive outside dogs.


17) What if someone showed up at your house unexpectedly, would you invite them in?
depends on who it was and if I knew them then probably so even though I would be horrified because I'm stinky from trying to clean and do homework.


18) What was your first date?
A group date with friends to the movies that my mother didn't know a boy was meeting me there.


19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
Some are cute, some are scary!


20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
One thing I would change and eventually WILL change is the post mom stomach roll...ya know the one that won't go away no matter how hard you work out. I will have a tummy tuck one day. Don't judge.



21) Who would be your crime partner?
Crime partner...my sister for sure.


22) What color eyes do you have?
Blue


23) Ever been arrested?
Nope


24) Bottle or can soda?
Fountain....if I drink one which is very rare.


25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
Pay of a few bills and go to disney world. Yes, cliche but it's our dream.


27) What's your favorite place to hang out?
Right now...home...trying to hide out this last month because our world is about to explode again with school schedules.


28) Do you believe in ghosts?
Yes but would have to explain in length about my thoughts on that and that's a entire post on its own.


29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
Hanging with the family for sure but with that comes....I am a certified tv addict. Computer addict.


30) Do you swear a lot?
Used too....gotten a lot better and still working on it.


31) Biggest pet peeve?
hands down, someone smacking their food, candy, or gum.


32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
Stubborn. On a side note, I texted a fried and asker her to describe me in one word and she said dedicated. Interesting.


33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
Wouldn't be married if I didn't


34) Favorite and least favorite food?
Love Mexican food, detest anything involving fish or seafood


35) Do you believe in God?
Absolutely


36) Will you repost this for others to do?
Yes

Going Bonkers

Love these three

This is where we spent our afternoon after church on Sunday,

it was sooo much fun!
The Aggravator is the blur in there from jumping so fast!

If you happen to live in the DFW area or even somewhat within distance, head over to Lewisville and go to Going Bonkers. The kids had a blast and it is great entertainment for an extremely decent price! It is worth the drive to spend the day.

Music Monday

Hairbows and Guitar Picks

Adele-Rolling in The Deep

A friend of mine introduced me to Adele's music this week and I have not been able to stop listening to her songs! She has an amazing voice...go to youtube and check out her version of "Make you feel my love" It is outstanding!! Hope you enjoy.

Knight in Diapers

Introducing:

Our Godson

aka

Knight in Diapers

who made me recondsider this not having another baby for a few minutes

and then this happen

and then I was extremely relieved to hand him over to his incredibly sweet mother.

A Lifetime of Relief

This is a post that I took from my old blog and re posted here to go along with a moment I felt relieved. Written in 2008


Dear Dr. OB/GYN,
I have used you for years...you delivered two out of my three children and I really do like you. I wouldn't go to any other doctor because of the care you showed through all my deliveries and surgeries you have had to perform. I thank you for that. I do not however thank you one bit for refusing to remove these evil things in my body that make me want to beat the crap out of anything in site. See all I asked of you was to simply remove the uterus because I was obviously done with it. I don't have any desire to utilize that uterus one bit anymore. The non stop infections that occur are getting annoying. The most horrendous cramps of my life in the last six months are just pure evil. I know that you being a mere man couldn't possibly understand the extent of pain that these things truly cause but it's not pleasant. I am to the point of wanting to kick your butt smooth out for daring to tell me no when I ask you to remove that said uterus. You can leave the rest, it will be okay. I just need that said uterus removed so the monthly evil knife stabbing pain will go away and those pesky infections would too.
I do understand that you went to medical school and you are trying to do what's best at this time but frankly....I DON'T CARE WHAT YOUR DEGREE SAYS!!!! My degree of being in this body of monthly misery says TAKE THIS OUT!! NOW!! I would really prefer to stop having surgeries for other things that is caused by those pesky ovaries and uterus so the removal would work out just fine.
I would advise you to take all this into consideration because there is a woman on the rampage right now. My husband would also greatly appreciate this as well. He lives with the aboved mention woman.
Sincerely,
The Crazy Hormonal Lady Who Wants to Kick your Butt.


I will have a lifetime of relief because I took initiative, switched Doctors, and had a hysterectomy! I have one remaining ovary so I don't have to worry about hormone supplements and I will never again feel the need to rip out my baby making system because it is gone! NOW THAT IS SOME RELIEF RIGHT THERE!!

What have you felt relief about lately? Come see what others are saying at Mama's Losin It

Squeaks from Miss Squeaker

"Momma I like your belly better than daddy's belly"

"Oh yeah, why is that baby?"

"Because you fat belly jiggles better"

"Always glad to make you happy baby"

Learning to Trust

My belief in God is not anything that I have ever questioned. I BELIEVE in God. Now, putting my complete trust in Him, giving it all to Him, handing my life over to Him, is a different story. I believe there is a God but have this ability to leave it at that. I find it hard to put my total faith in Him. It's almost seems when I look back over the last year that I have specifically pulled myself back and hidden from Him altogether. I have this desire but to actually put forth the effort isn't something I have done. I know I feel God's presence and know that I have definitely seen His amazing love. BUT, I kept holding myself back. Over and over again.

That is until two weeks ago. I made the conscious decision to have God IN my life. To surround my life in Him. I can honestly say for the very first time, I am making the effort. I am all in. This, being "all in" is something that was discussed in church and for once it just hit me like a ton of bricks. I have to choose to be "all in." I have to choose to live the life that I am created to live. I have to choose HIM. He has already chosen me.

Making this decision has been, oh I don't know how to word it, but amazing. I took up the challenge our pastor gave us in reading the Bible everyday. For the first time in my life, I am actually doing it. I am not going to say it's easy, it's been a struggle to try to understand but I am reading.

I am rambling on but I just have to put it out there. Through all this I have to speak of the change that is occurring. My husband who has always been about the same, believed but not putting forth the effort, is involving himself. I can say for years I have struggled with having the desire but just not doing it. My husband, he has been indifferent to the entire thing. He will tell you he believes but that's where it ends. But for the first time, he is willing to go to church. He is willing to get up and go. This alone is a huge deal for us. It's not just that he is willing to go though, he is involving himself in church. Without me pushing or even asking, he is involving himself in the men's group. He is reading the Bible. He is putting forth the effort to be "all in."

I remember meeting Hollie over a year ago and telling her this was one of the things that was disappointing to me because I wanted my husband to go with me. She told me then that she understood that but I need to make an effort to go regardless. It's funny when I finally decide that whether he is going with me or not, I will go. And here I am going, and here he is, going with me. It's an amazing feeling. He is going with me when, in fact, he could just stay him and he knows I wouldn't give him a hard time. I, also, know that I am to a point that when he is working, I can and will still go.

We are in a time in our life where things are unsettling. We are very unsure of many, many things in our future. Things in our life are changing at a rapid pace. I am not handling the uncertainty in the best way. Our marriage, is going through a LOT. It's been a tough go BUT for once, I can FEEL, really FEEL, that I am putting my trust and faith in God. I am not saying it will be all rainbows. I am not saying by believing in God that it will simply take away all the struggles and make life easy but through the struggles, I KNOW that I will have God by my side. I know that we have finally found a home church. A church that when I walk in, I can feel an overwhelming love from people who know we are not perfect.

Two Beautiful Girls

I am simply in love with these two girls!

On a side note:

Madam Emotion has always resembled her biological father more so than me but I keep getting comments lately on how she looks just like me. I just assumed people only said that because they have never met her biological father (Sir Worksalot has been her Daddy since she was two so this is why its stated like that, biological is random in her life at best). Well, in this one picture, I really see it for the first time. She really looks a lot like me, freckles and all! And what gets me the most about those freckles is that I have always hated mine but LOVE that my children have them. Miss Squeaky just got her first freckle on her face this last summer. A happy dance occurred when I saw it!

2011 New Year Goals

The Zookeepers 2011 Goals:

*Create a bucket list and try to follow through. This isn't something I have ever done and look forward to putting basic to tough items in the list. I want to do this with Sir Worksalot and see how many we can accomplish this year.

*Work on really reading the Bible for the first time in my life. I have always wanted to and then I start it and for some reason NEVER keep up with it. Our church set forth this challenge and Sir Worksalot and I took the challenge. I am anxious to see what this brings to our life.

*Finally lose those last 20-25lbs that I have been half way been trying to work off for the last 6 months. My doctor wants me at a goal weight of under 130. I haven't weighed myself since the holidays but will be doing later at the gym, if my weight is still at 150 then losing 25lbs puts me at 125 which would be within that goal weight. At times it doesn't seem realistic but if I really would get back on track, I know I could do it. I am a short 5'2 so this should be a realistic goal for my short self. I lost 30lbs last year so I know I can do this!

These are basically all of my goals. I know creating the bucket list will add more but I don't even have a clue what that will end up being so I will have to wait to post those later.

What goals do you have in mind for yourself? Would you ever consider doing a bucket list? What would your bucket list include?

The Padded Room

I am the very involved mother of three children and married to an amazing man who isn't your average guy. He is the rare man out there that will cook, clean, and changed the diapers of our children when they were babies. We are a family of five who are all currently in school.

Introducing the family:

Sir Worksalot: an amazing man who is currently finishing up his Paramedic degree. He will be done in August of 2011 but in the meantime is he going to school full time, doing his clinicals and working full time. All the while being a dad and husband to us. How he keeps up with it all is beyond me. To say he is amazing is putting it mildly in my opinion.

Madam Emotional: Our highly emotional 10 year old girl who is already going through the transition into pre-teen. She is this extremely emotional child who wears her emotions on her sleeves but is also an amazing caring child who wants to be a friend to all. She loves to express herself through music, dance, and art. She is a bookworm who loves going to school not just for her friends but for the actual schooling. She finds great joy in Science, the Earth, and Weather. She is a girl of many traits and looks forward to what brings each day.

The Aggravator: Our one and only boy, 7, whose sole goal in life right now is to aggravate his sisters. He succeeds very well in this goal. He is an active boy who loves sports, playing video games with his dad, and detest anything with school. He is thoroughly bored in school because he far surpasses his grade level. He is a child who can drive you to insanity in one minute but give the most amazing hugs in the next minute.

Miss Squeaky: Our 4 year old who is often called Squeakers because she tends to squeak when she talks if she is overly excited and 90% of the time she is overly excited about something! She gets extremely mad about being called that and we find it hysterical. She is extremely smart for a 4 year old and the things that come out of her mouth sometimes will bring tears to your eyes from laughing so hard. She is a daily reminder that laughter is good for the soul.

The Zookeeper: That would be me. I am a 27 year old college student is still not entirely sure of what I want to be when I grow up. I am currently going for teaching but not sure that it's the fit for me. I am in a point in my life that most 18 year old students are in, unsure of what step comes next. (minus all the partying!) Aside from this, I am a woman who loves her family with a extreme intensity. I never knew you could love like that until they came into my life. I am a girl who loves her God but still struggles on a daily basis with her Faith. Even though I struggle, I know Jesus Christ is my Father and will not abandon me. I am a lady who strives to be a better person, a woman who has recently had to learn who I am, what defines me, and how to live up to my own potential. I love to read, I watch way too much TV, am addicted to coffee and the Internet. I am a lucky girl with awesome friends and family. I am a lady who has recently lost family members that I love and dealing with the heartache of it all. I have lost them to death or just simple stupidity which has cut them out of my life. The heartache of it is the same in both situations. My goal in life is to strive to be the best I can be and to be a benefit to everyone in my life. My life can be emotional and intense at times or fun loving and carefree. You never know which your going to get. All of this to say that I think there is a padded room with my name stamped on it and you can join me if you like, just make sure to bring your straight jacket!


***I am not new to blogging but this is a new blog name. I have had a different one and have followers from the old blog who came with me here. I changed my blog name due to some privacy issues and not in any way to mislead anyone**