Sunday, March 27, 2011

Happy Birthday To Our Boys

9 years ago my best friend gave birth to this precious baby boy. He came out with eyes so beautiful and a smile that could melt everyones heart. 7 very short months later he went on to live in Heaven after battling from Neuroblastoma for only 3 weeks. He didn't get to live to see his 1st birthday.
On what should have been his first birthday, my baby boy with eyes so beautiful and a smile that can melt anyones heart was born. They share a birthday these two boys. These two boys who should be celebrating today, together, but while one celebrates here on earth, the other celebrates his in Heaven.
Two Mothers. Two Sons. A bond that was formed by birthdays. Two boys who are loved. Even though it's not how we imagined it to be, we celebrate our boys.
Happy Birthday Boys!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

A Almost 8 Year Old Blessing

As we are counting down the days till Mr. Aggrivator's 8th birthday, I was telling him his birth story. I was telling him all about the days leading up to it, that day, and the many days afterwards. I really was instantly reminded how far this precious boy has come. He went from being our sick preemie baby boy to our very healthy, rambunctious almost 8 year old!

His first NICU picture

He was so feisty from the get go that he kept getting his IV out of his arm so they put it in his head. This was called his party hat!

My Boy who absolutely melts my heart. He is so very healthy and happy. He makes me happy, he makes me mad, he makes me feel every emotion a mother can feel. I never knew that I could love such a smelly, stinky boy so much!

He is such a great kid. We are so blessed to call him ours. God took our sick baby boy and turned him into a healthy, rambunctious almost 8 year old. To say we are blessed is putting it mildly. God have us one of the best gifts a person can ever receive when he gave us him.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Momma's Too Wide

Sir Worksalot and I made a quick getaway on a date while my Mom watched the kids for us. We had a lovely night of watching Red Riding Hood, great food, an awesome margarita, and then some shopping. It was a perfect evening away!

Then to make a great evening even better, we come home to find this waiting hidden under our blankets. The Aggrivator drew these for us. The next morning he told me that he messed up on the picture of me though because he made me too wide! HAHA I love that boy!

Don't forget about my giveaway...going to announce the winner soon so make sure you comment soon!

Friday, March 18, 2011

I think I have a tongue issue...

They were suppose to make silly faces too....they pulled one over on Mom!

His face in this one is priceless! I just LOVE this picture!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

That Wife Loves That Husband

This Man:
has my heart.
His love is:
Holding the wives hand all night while in the hospital. Wetting paper towels to help with the sweats that came and went. Holding the tiny bag near by in case his wife needed to throw up. Telling his wife she could do it when having to drink a huge cup of nastiness every 10 minutes. Staying up a solid 24 hours straight just to make sure she is going to be okay. Wishing the pain was in him, not in his wife. Keeping the children entertained in another room once home while the wife slept for a solid 10 hours. Holding on to the wife and telling her he loves her when she couldn't look or feel any worse.
That wife loves that husband.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Venting by Crazy Me!

I am feeling the need to bare with me! Is it bare with me or bear with me??....hmmm....anyways....I have been dealing with some odd issues medically and been back and forth to the Dr. trying to figure it out. If your uncomfortable with too much personal info...come back to visit another day! :)

Odd and random symptoms that make me sound like a nut job when I go to the Dr. :

*Extreme Fatigue- beyond the normal for a mom of 3.
*Random sharp pains in my side- come at odd times and are progressively getting worse. They have zero consistant pattern of occurance but can last a few minutes to hours!
*Dime size lump in my neck- been there since atleast October when I first noticed it. Currently just discovered another one but smaller than the other. They are next to each other.
*Breast Secretions- only comes out of one breast. I have had a hysterectomy. I have one sole ovary left. I have not breastfed any of my children in over 4 years so should not have anything in there. This has been going on for awhile...maybe 6 months or so.
*Night Sweats-not every single night but enough to drive me crazy but figured came with only having one ovary left.

Here is what the Dr has done. I have had blood work done, the normal CBC counts, thyroid check and some other things checked. All came back normal. I don't have any thyroid issues, I'm not anemic, and no mono. and some other things I am not. She told me maybe I was depressed which explains the fatigue and she figured my horomones were causing the breast secreation and to take horomones to balance me out. I refused to do this until she did blood work to check my horomone levels because my ob/gyn dr. said to never take pills for horomones unless we knew there was an actual imbalance. So, she concedes to this (she was a bit annoyed with me) and I have my levels checked. They are normal. So she then said don't worry about the horomones, your fine. Again gives me the spill about being depressed. She has never tried to explain what the lump could be from. Yet, that still doesn't explain the breast secreation, side pain, or the lump. If I honestly thought for one tiny second depression could be it, I would not be that person who fights the Dr. We are busy as hell but I promise depressed is not my mind frame. If you had asked me this a few months ago, maybe, because I was so stressed and having anxiety attacks like crazy but I am telling you, this is not the same.

I don't understand a Dr. who tells me to take estrogen without even knowing if it's needed. I don't understand a Dr. who then says, "oh well, I guess you don't need estrogen, I guess your just depressed." Depression does not explain the lumps, the pain, or the secreation. So, why did she just send me home without trying to figure out WHY those things are happening??

Anyways, she tells me your probably depressed and you need to just work out to build your energy. Here is my issue on this. I have gotten to where I actually LOVE to work's my stress relief, my "me" time, so when I say that I have gotten to the point that I can't hardly make it through any workout without feeling completely wiped out, I know there is something going on with me. It's not me! I didn't lose all that weight to be considered a lazy person who just doesn't want to work out. I want to do it and I do it everyday but the intensity is lacking.

I am sooo frustrated. The pain in the side is getting worse, the lump is getting bigger, now there is another tiny one. The secreation hasn't gone away. The fatigue is always there. always. What do you do? Seriously, what do I do now? She makes me feel like a nut job! I honestly might believe its all in my head if it wasn't for the fact that I have solid physical proof that something is going on.

Pure frustration at this point and it's not like I can just go to a differnt Dr. We currently do not have health insurance and won't until August or so. I guess really until then, I do nothing and hope that it goes away but the frustration in the meantime...well is frustrating.

Monday, March 7, 2011

All About Me Monday

I love Mondays because not only is there Music Monday Posts but then there is All About Me Monday too....both are fun links! Click on either link to join in!

All About Me Monday gives just a quick glance into our random thoughts and life little tidbits to get to know me better!

1. Who do you think is cleaner... men or women?
Generally, I would say women but I can honestly say that I am married to one of the cleanest man I know and swear he spends more time getting ready than I do.

2. Name three things you would do if you were a man for one day.
If I swapped roles with my husband that means I would get to be apple of my daughters eyes, not do any laundry, and not be near as self conscious about myself because that man has more confidence than I could ever imagine having!

3. What is the oldest item you have in your closet?
I guess the oldest thing physically in the closet would be the guns that my husband has stored in there. If we are discussing the clothes in the closet than that would be my US Navy sweat pants...I LOVE those things, and 10 years later I still have them and love how comfortable and warm they are even if they now sport some paint splatters all over them!

4. Have you ever had a surprise party thrown for you? Or have you had one for someone else?
I have never had one for myself but I have thrown one for my mom's birthday and my aunt/uncle anniversary. My moms birthday and my aunt/uncles anniversary is all very close together so the year my mom turned 50, my aunt/uncle had been married for 25 years so we told my mom the party was for my aunt/uncle. We told my aunt/uncle the party was for my mom. Then we threw them a dual surprise birthday/anniversary party. It was awesome fun!

5. What part of your body do you neglect the most?
I guess if we are talking about working out then I would have to say my arms because of my back I am currently not allowed to do any kind of weights or push ups so my arms are sorely neglected and I am very upper body strength weak. Hopefully, that will all change soon!

6. Is your second toe longer than your big toe?
nope they are exactly the same length

7. Do you use shaving cream when you shave?
No, I learned long ago the trick of using hair conditioner. I don't break out when I use conditioner and very rarely cut myself.

Music Monday: Adele

Join in on Music Monday with Hair Bows and Guitar Picks who has a huge love for music. If you do too, add in some of your favorites and give us a taste of what you love!
I am currently addicted to this beautiful lady right here.....


This is her live version of "Set Fire to The Rain"

and one of her number 1 sellers on her new cd, "Rolling in The Deep"

Rolling in The Deep is my kids favorite from her....we as an entire family LOVE her. She has such a soulful gorgerous voice. It's really rare that some of our favorite artist sound just as good live as they do on their cds and she truly sounds amazing either way!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Capture The Everyday

Join in at Adventuroo to enjoy the fun of Capture The Everyday
This week theme is What's On Your Nightstand??

This is a good view of my week in general. You have my coffee mug which is on my nightstand every single morning while I get going in the morning. Then you have my devetional study over the book of Paul, a Beth Moore study. My favorite lotion. My lamp which I love because it moves all around, has little cubbies on the bottom for my phone and a plug so my phone charger can be right there too. Specific for this week is my Mucinex, themometer, and roll of toilet paper because I have run out of Kleenex! I have been sick and really hope at some point it shows that it will let up!

What does your snippet of life on your nightstand look like?

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