Movie Night

We woke up Snowflake watching the Elf on the Shelf movie. The kids think he was missing his friends.

Calling all homeschool Mom's...

What type of homeschool curriculum are you using? How do you get started? How do you find out the legal business behind schooling, so you don't end up in jail for not sending your children to school?

I am not saying this is route that I am going to take, but am showing some interest in it. We are having an incredibly difficult year with my son and am beginning to think if we keep up at this rate, he will despise school for the rest of his life.

Any help from you ladies?

Just hanging around...

My Future Artist

My son did this at school. I am one impressed Momma.

Christmas Cheer

I love Christmas time...soo much fun to be had. I am still around, just busy with finals, work, and all the different activities that occur during this time of year!

Flakes is Back...

And getting sneaker by the day!

Drama Queens lead to Drama Glees

The dramatics of a 5 year old can be exhausting, but at the same time it leads to great story telling.

Miss Squeaky: (while in Old Navy) Oh meeeee, my belllllyyyy hurts!

Me: I'm sorry.

Miss Squeaky: (in the most dramatic voice possible) Oh! Just throw me to the ground and drag me! Oooooohhh me!

Me: (hysterical laughter)

A Proud First

In our family,  it is a very special event when a boy gets to go on his first hunting trip.  The time had come and my uncle took my son. (Daddy had to work) He was so excited and now Mom is impatiently waiting for his return.  I was informed that it's a man trip and mind didn't even get to call!  So for 3 days its been silent around here. All too silent.  Man trip.  Pft! I want to here from my boy!  He will be back today and while I hope he's having a blast,  I want him home!

Living Life

I'm still here. We have so much going on that I would love to share and just haven't had the time to do. I wonder if any of you are even still out there! I miss blogging, but have discovered that living my life hasn't left much time to speak about it!

Sir Worksalot is loving his job. It's wonderful to have him home more since he has officially graduated from paramedic school. He passed his national exam with flying colors. He is just a few short weeks away from having his own truck with a basic medic under him. I am extremely proud of him.

I am finishing up my last few weeks of this semester. It's been a tough one. I have been going to school forever and always find it tough and a struggle with the kids, but never realized how much harder it was going to be by adding in work to the mix. I will be the first to say though, I love my job! I love all the people and have really come a long why in battling my shyness. I find myself talking to the most random of strangers even in public now, not just work!

All the children are doing great! They are all anxiously waiting for Christmas and Snowflake made his appearance again on Thanksgiving. We weren't home though, so Miss Sqeaky was very worried that he missed us while we were gone! I had to reassure her that he was fine, he's magical so he knew where we were!

This is us in a nutshell. We are busy as always. We are enjoying life. I have some pictures that I would love to post at some point. I have some funnies I would love to mention. We will see if I ever actually get it done! I miss you my lovelies!

Disgusted

I am sad today. I watched my boy go through a situation he should have never had to go through and it makes me sad. He was mistreated and the people in authority did nothing. Nothing. He was picked on, humiliated, and yelled at. Where is the line for adults sometimes? What the he'll is wrong with people. When did it become okay for children to use such foul language? When did parents stop caring about their children's behavior? I am sick. My tough and rumble boy was hurt, cussed, and yelled ay by another child? Really??? And all for a sport? A sport....this is not the way I was raised and sure not how I choose to raise my children. I am done. Something that should have bee fun has turned into pure ugliness. And all under a "Christian" organization. I am beyond disgusted and disappointed. And done.

Sushi for Dinner?

This is not a promotional ad on my part for GEICO. I can't say whether they have good insurance or not, I have awesome insurance through State Farm, BUT this commercial is hysterical!!

My daughter was horrified....I, on the other hand, couldn't stop laughing.

They (men) should learn...

Miss Squeakers: Momma, you know everything!

Me: That's because Mom's are suppose to know everything.

Miss Squeakers: What about daddy?

Me: Daddy too.

Miss Squeakers: No, Mommas know more than daddies, because daddy always has to ask you question and you always know the answers.

Proof once again we are the smarter one.

I am the Wife of a Paramedic....

It's official!! Sir Worksalot is DONE! DONE! DONE!

I can't even believe that it's real. I mean, he is really done? Like done? Yep! He took his National exam last week and passed. I finally get to have my husband back. I am so proud of him. It has been two LONG years, but we made it through it. There were times when I'm not sure either of us could, but we did. We made it. He made it. Ahh, the pride this wife is feeling!

Let's Play Catch Up

I have so much to say and so little time to say it! Things are busy around here which is really our normal. I am okay with it for the most part. I come home from either work or school everyday and have about 30 minutes of laying flat on my face in bed for 30 minutes before I pick up those creatures we lovingly call children. Children are scary sometimes. And exhausted. But so darn cute at the same time.

I have a little bit of time in between classes today so I decided to take the time and play catch up. I should be working on assignments. I miss my blog though. And comments. And reading about your life.


See this picture?

That's my boy making 67 yard touchdown. He's basically a power house on the football field. It's been a stunning revelation to us all. He's really truly amazing. That's not just Momma talking. The entire coaching staff tells me it every single practice. It's pretty cool but I would love him even if he was awful and still think he was amazing, because really he is one amazing kid.

That oldest child of mine? She's pretty amazing herself. She started playing the clarinet this year in band. She LOVES it. It makes her incredibly happy. They did their chair test last week which I knew nothing about and she comes home telling me she made 1st chair out of 8! That pretty much means she's awesome. Sooo proud of her and better yet she is soo proud of herself!

My children? They ROCK.

The wee little punk of mine is doing fantastic herself. She is loving school and really coming out of her shell. She is less shy and finally makes instant friends with other children she has never met. Two months ago, she wouldn't do that at all. It's really exciting to see her finally open up to others. She misses me though and I have to say I secretly love that. She enjoys going to school but she asked me the other day if I miss her when she is gone and I said, "yes very much, I miss our cartoon mornings and hold your hand." She said, "Me too Momma, I miss laying in your bed while you laugh at Micktey Mouse with me." Baby girl, you have no idea how much Momma misses you. The rare times I am at home by myself, I miss my partner in crime so much.

It's an odd feeling having all three children in school now. They are just all so big and growing up so fast. I know people say that all the time but wow, it really is fast. I mean I have an 11 year old that I have to go buy her first real bra for soon. The 8 year old who is my constant stubborn mule is entirely too smart for his own good and knows how to work his Momma a little to well. Then my baby, who should still be running around in diapers is now a big school girl. When the hell did that happen?

I need new pictures. I was going through and looking for some of all of us to post here. Umm yeah...I have nothing new. I have a bunch of football pictures that need to be sorted but nothing of all of us. Must fix that soon. Until then my lovelies, I am off to my next class. Enjoy the rest of your week and know I miss the blogging community.

............

I AM EXHAUSTED.

that is all.

Do your dreams scare you??

If you have been a reader of mine long or someone who came from my old blog, you will know that I have these insanely vivid dreams. I mean the kind where I wake up some mornings trying to figure out if that was a dream or not. Or the type of dreams that when they come back to me days later, I really have to think hard if that really happened or if it was just a dream. Ya know like, "did I really have that conversation with my husband or just dream about it?" I'm not joking. I have had to ask my husband before about a conversation and he was so confused until I realized it had to been in my dreams.

Anyways, these dreams. They are getting horrible. Over the last few months I keep have these same dreams that my youngest daughter has cancer. These dreams vary by a little but it's always the same hospital, the same cancer, the same horrible, horrible dream. I can't stop thinking about it. It is driving me crazy. And I worry. I know sounds crazy right???

I think it is because I have read a blog of a little girl with cancer? Is it because my best friends baby boy died from cancer? Do I just worry about this deep down and it comes out in dreams? I don't know. Seriously though...it's making me feel sick when I wake up. And it's happening all the time. All the time. I would say atleast 2x a week. That's a LOT!

What made it all the worse was when that cyst ruputred on her finger, they mentioned cancer. And it scared the shit out of me. No lie. I panicked. After her surgery when they got a good look at it, they weren't as worried anymore and said that they don't see that as a concern now. That made me able to breathe easier and those results will be back by the time we go back for her follow up on Friday.

Does anybody else out there have crazy dreams like this that pester you day in and day out? Am I CRAZY?? Because really, this is getting old and it makes me worry that maybe it's not so crazy. Maybe there is something to my dreams. Or not. D

Do you think I am crazy? I mean outside the normal of my crazy?

Surgery went really well. It looks to be that her cyst was ruptured when she possibly hit it on something without even realizing it. The small vessels in her finger ruptured which caused all the swelling and pain. They open it up and it was full of old blood so they are pretty positive that the pathology report will come back 100% good. It's a huge relief for us.

She did amazing before hand, she was calm and very happy. Her daddy spoiled her rotten. He went and got her some slippers for her Princess dress that she decided to wear to the hospital. If one has to have surgery, one should do it in style! Then he got her a little charm bracelet to go with it all. That was all for BEFORE surgery. Then there was the AFTER surgery goodies....

Along with giant baby who she named after her nusre Mary Melissa, she got a pack of lip glosses and fingernail polishes. Let's just say daddy went overboard! The recovery period of surgery was pretty brutal. She was hysterical, scared, and in a lot of pain. We got through it though and so glad that she is feeling so much better today!

Surgery

Ms. Squeakers is having surgery tomorrow. I am a jumbled mess of nerves. It was not a set surgery, not expected. Went to the Dr. this morning at 7:45am and come back at 5:00 this evening with knowing we have surgery in the morning. It's not a comfortable feeling. At all.

We spent the morning with the pediatrician who then referred us to the surgeon, who then says, yes she needs surgery. Like immediately. Hmm...like now? They said no, we can wait a bit. Like till tomorrow. So, then the rest of the day was spent registering for surgery, setting up payments, and all that fun jazz that makes things complicated when you don't have health insurance.

All in all, I know she will be fine. It's a quick surgery. She has a cyst on her finger. It's been there since she was 2 and now suddenly it's a problem. It's massive in the last two weeks. It's taking over her entire finger and making it hard for her to move it which isn't good seeing as it's on her writing hand. Did I mention that they mentioned cancer? Yeah. Nope...nerves. Not handling them too well in this moment.

So, yes this is a off the wall post. Weird in fact, I am asking for prayer. Prayer for my daughter's surgery to go smoothly. Prayer for the pathology reports to come back normal. Prayer for my nerves. She will be fine. We will be fine. Praying through our nerves.

A God moment happen today that I do want to share and will try to post for tomorrow before I go to sleep tonight. I have to get some homework done and then will post.

God is good all the time, all the time God is good.

Let the Season Begin!!

Let me introduce you to my son, who is apparently a seriously good football player!

This will be his first year to play tackle football and from the coaches responses to him he is really, really good! I had no clue! He is now the fastest runner on the team and one of the strongest. I was worried about him, apparently, what I have to worry about is him hurting others because he hits too hard. The coaches are keeping the smaller kids from him because he could hurt them. That is a bit scary but, also, a little exciting to know that he is really doing so well. And he LOVES it! So much so, that is he now dreaming about it at night.

It's Official...

I have ALL three of my children in school.

Yes. I cried.

I made it through until I got home though.

I want brownie points for that.

or just brownies would be great!

This is what they say to all the pictures

I didn't get one of all three together because Ms. 6th grader chose to ride the bus instead of us taking her! :( And the bus comes early. And I forgot to do the picture until she was at the bus stop.

This...melts my momma heart.

 

I am now the mother of a Kindergartener, 3rd grader, and a 6th grader.

Where does the time go?

 Before you know it they will all be off to college!

Sabotage

My co-worker is out to get me.

She is sabotaging my weight loss goal.

Stream of Consciousness Sunday: Hectic Life Editon

It's been awhile since I've been here. For my blog and SOCS. Things are going at a rapid pace right now which is why I thought this would be a great time to post SOCS. It seems reviewing my old blog that life has always been hectic for us. I wonder at some point will that change? It only seems to get worse but worse in a good way if that makes any sense. I start my 15 hours of school in two weeks which would normally be a bit worrisome for me on a normal day but add in the fact that husband is still finishing his last month and half of school, and The Aggrivator is starting football in a week, and Madame Emotions is starting swim in a few weeks....well that is A LOT. Oh wait I forgot that I also have work. Yeah. That fits in there somewhere right? Hmmm.....I need two of me. Or three.

BUT have I mentioned how excited I am for The Aggrivator to be playing football again? And for Madame Emotions to be training to get on the swim team? Now that is some awesome stuff right there! The schedules will be insanity but to watch each of them do something that I know they will have to work hard for but, also, love? It's totally worth it!

Chunky Cheeses

While the older two were at camp we decided to spend some one on one time with our Miss Squeaky. She has been begging to go to Chucky Cheeses for over a year now and we finally took her. We had so much fun with her in there. She was so overly happy about every single game! I love her excitement! After doing awesome at the hospital for her xrays and tests, she was extremely over the moon that she got to finally go to the one place she talks about all the time, although, she calls it Chunky Cheeses. Haha!

And then here is her excitement before heading out to the water park for the day. She was talking 90 to nothing, going nuts with excitement to get there.

And then Momma & Daddy got an unexpected date after the water park because the awesome Maemae took Miss Squeaky with her to dinner. I LOVE unexpected dates. We finally got to go see Harry Potter and I have to say, I LOVED it! Everyone we talk to so far hasn't liked it so I was expecting to be disappointed. I was not.

Oh and we got to go eat at our favorite sports bar & grill! Yummo! But when I took the pictures off my phone for the day, I could only help but laugh at what I saw. I took a picture of the husband. He then took a picture of the wife. Typical man. One focus.

Music Monday: Feeling Good by Micheal Buble

I have recently really gotten into listening to Pandora when I am sitting at my desk at work and I LOVE that I can put in certain singers that I like and it will give me music from others that are similiar. This is one that I haven't heard of until this past week and now love! Love his voice!

Blessings

I am removing all names from emails, but wanted to share these powerful words that two sisters who have gone through so much loss, have to share. These words touched me in such a way I can't even explain. My best friend lost her baby boy when he was 7 months old. Read here for more about that story and how it brought us together as the closest of friends. The first email is from my best friends sister (I have gotten to know the entire family after all these years) who recently experience the loss of her own best friends daughter. The second email is my best friends response.


Hey guys -


Mom & I were having a conversation about why God takes innocent babies?  Why does He give innocent babies to horrible parents, only to end up abused, neglected, and sometimes even dead?  Why do wonderful parents sometimes loose their children?.  I was thinking maybe our job as mere humans is not to figure God out or to know why He does what He does.  Maybe it is just to trust Him no matter what happens.  Period.  We spend so much time & energy asking "Why?" yet we never really get an answer, do we?  I think we just need to say, "OK.  This sucks, but I'm still going to follow God & trust Him no matter what."  After all, that's what true faith is - trusting when it's really hard.


There is a song out called "Blessings" by Laura Story.  I posted the video on my Facebook page.  It has been very comforting to me during this time.


Anyway, just thought I'd share.


Love yall,


(my friends sister)

And here is my best friend's response which is another email full of powerful words.

I love that song Blessings. We also have to remember that God sees death as a coming home, a beginning Of eternal life where as we see it as an end. God sees what we don't see
1 cor 13:12 says that now we only see in part but when we get to heaven we will see in full the why's.
We also live in a fallen world full of sin. No where in the Bible did God promise us a perfect life without sorrow. In fact just the opposite. John 16 Jesus tells us we will have troubles but His presence & peace will be with us.
When (her baby boy) died I came to a point when I decided I was not going to ask why because there is no healing there, but in trust & faith there is healing. I chose even when angry to go to God in my anger & in return I have been given peace. I feel that how can I ever Turn my back on God when God is My source of comfort & strength. The ability everyday to get out of bed & be joyful & face the day because whoever said time heals all things is a liar. I think sometimes time makes it worse, because you see all the things that are missing & all the things that should be. I should be signing up a little boy for peewee football, getting him ready for Fourth grade,  (Her 12 yr. old girl) has (my 11 yr old girl), (her 7 yr old girl) has (my 5 yr old girl), (my 8 yr old boy) should have (what should have been her 9 yr old boy). Things like that.  I don't know how I would get through these times without the trust & faith I have in God.
I read a devotion yesterday that talked about showing people your scars & your stories that through them other people believe & can receive healing. It really spoke to me because most of the time we try to cover up our "scars"  & put a brave face on. It made me realize that I needed to be more open about what God has done in my life even if its hard.
I am also blessed with such a wonderful family!
Love you guys!
(My best friend)

I share their words in hopes of them helping anyone else who needs to hear them right now. Please share if you know someone who could benefit from them.

What I'm Loving Wednesday

I LOVE that we are getting to take Miss Squeaky to this waterpark next Friday.

I LOVE that it is camp time again! Dropping the older two off at camp on Sunday

I LOVE that they make great connections during the week and have an amazing time

I will secretly admit to LOVING a week of just being a mom to one while they are at camp. I will miss them but the time away will be good to regain my sanity after this long summer so far!

I am LOVING my new job. I am LOVING that I can see the long term potential. I LOVE that people are asking about me because I am doing a great job! That feels good!

What are you LOVING on this beautiful Wednesday?

Just hit Publish

***This post comes from yesterday. I wouldn't hit publish. I always hesitate when I post something really honest and maybe not so peppy happy. This is part of me forcing myself to just hit the publish button and blog with honesty.***

Living in a constant state of uncertainty makes for one to sometimes be extremely grumpy. Or maybe that's putting it mildly, I am angry. Justified anger? Not sure. Irrationally angry? Probably. How do I go about making it go away? Not a clue.

I have this pattern of putting on some worship music and zoning out lately. I try to sort through everything going on and I can't seem to get my mind to calm down. It like there is this massive raging storm going on. A storm that I can't seem to talk to anyone about. Not completely anyways. I put on this music and have these conversations with myself, with God, and just try to grasp some since of peace.

And it's not like it's just one topic that is an issue. It is sooo many overwhelming things going on around here that I feel like I'm drowning. I can't catch a breath. And what results from all this, is an angry person. Oh, I cover it up for the most part, the angry stays on the inside. Mostly. The husband catches glimpses of it occasionally but I try not to let it touch him because he has the world sitting on his shoulders.

Don't get me wrong. I have loads of happy around. I feel and experience happy everyday. I love my kids, they are a huge happy, bright spot. The husband, he's a happy spot, he's just gone so much that I miss my happy with him. I have this amazing family that i am surrounded with love. Those are what matter most, along with my faith.

It's just these other situations, they sit in the background and fester. When I lay down at night, I can't sleep. Then comes the stress, the worry, the panic. The inward insanity and it's like it all festers long enough that I get angry. And then I pray, because, angry is not where I want to be.

How do you process your stress or worry? What helps you calm down and feel peace?

My Wild Friday Recap

I had an extremely wild and crazy day  yesterday.

 A day one envies and wishes they had done that all day and evening like me.

What were my wild adventures?

Fight germs baby! Don't ya wish you were here to help? Yeah, me too.

This house is sparkling now. Don't be jealous!

More sleep, less vomit please?

I feel utterly beat down. We are on day 12 of a stomach virus. We have each had it twice, except for the hubby who has only had it once. Just when I think we are over it, someone else wakes up in throwing up.

I miss church. We have now missed 3 Sunday's, two because of the virus, the first week because of other obligations. I am missing my weekly uplift. Yes, I know He is always here but I am still missing my church, worship, sermon, and the church family.

The older two were suppose to go to camp this week. Thankfully, the place that they go to camp at let us postpone it. They were really upset thinking they would miss out on it all together. It's a family tradition for the kids to go every summer once they are old enough. I went to the same camp when I was a kid. It is so much fun and you learn so many different things like learning to ski, canoe, sail, ride horses, and many other things. Such an amazing experience.

Pray for us to get better soon. A momma needs some renewed energy and strength. And I'm tired of cleaning up vomit.

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What I'm Loving Wednesday

I LOVE me a summer mohawk on this boy below

I LOVE waking up to find a creeper had snuck in my room and slept on the floor.

I LOVE see this look one little girl gives her daddy because she knows she is loved, adored, and safe. A look that some children never get to experience and she is so very blessed to have.

5k Virgin

I just signed up for my first 5k!! I have 2 months to get myself fully prepared for it. I can do it on a treadmill without a hitch but getting used to outside and on concrete will be tough. We shall see how it goes, either way, I am excited!

Land of the Sick

I had to clean up multi-colored vomit yesterday. The husband has been on shift and not here to help. I vomit when I see or smell vomit. That's where I have been this week. You?

What I'm Loving Wednesday

I LOVE an evening out with my Prince

 and some lovely company

wearing a dress that makes me feel great!

Sorry! Forgot to get a full length picture the day I wore it! I LOVED it!

 (dressing room picture)

I LOVED watching a beautiful bride dance with her handsome prince.

Such a beautiful evening enjoying the happiness of two people beginning their life together as one.



Would you like our kind of party favors?

I have birthday party pictures to post but that will have to wait as 4 out of our 5 family members currently have a stomach virus. Too bad I am one of the 4. Too bad nearly everyone that went to that said birthday party has it too. Apparently, we send home stomach viruses as party favors. We are awesome like that.

Hair Bows & Guitar Picks

Safe By Britt Nicole

I came across this song when watching the show Drop Dead Diva which I have actually gotten into even though I thought it was incredibly cheesy to begin with. This song was on the the last episode and I immediatly grabbed my phone and SoundHound it to try to find out who sang it. I have since fallen in love with this womans music! LOVE IT!!

I love this video below of her telling the story behind the song.